Peace and Hippie Love

I've always wonder ever since I was a child, how do people grow? Is it by cultural change? Or is it the influence he/she is getting from his/her peers? Or some family things? I've realized that it's hard to grow up. Yes, I want to grow up as soon as possible to achieve up my dream job and career, but I'm afraid to leave all of my beloved things when I'm still young.

Today's the month of September. Yes, it's the start for the countdown for Christmas and for my birthday. I'm already excited. Of course, it's my sweet sixteenth birthday. No matter how hard I tried to hide it, it still lingers on my blood. I can feel my arteries are going to burst out because of too much excitement for my body to handle.

Am I doing good in my life? I guess not. Since I'm not a talker, I couldn't find a way how to express my personal thoughts. If I put it on the blog, some people might read it and interpret it the wrong way, just like what happened last year. If I tried to write it on some paper, it would definitely lose. What am I going to do with myself? I tried writing my thoughts on my personal journal, but it doesn't have enough space now and I still don't have enough budget to afford another journal just like my previous one. It costs around 300 pesos in National Bookstore.